Saturday, July 11, 2009

Kyle continued vomiting and not tolerating his milk last night, so they turned it off. We met with Dr. Davis, Dr. Tam (heart surgeon), and some other doctors today. Dr. Tam's reputation is that he is the last one to give up or quit on a child. He told us today with tears in his eyes that if it were his son, he would withdraw support. They all said basically the same.

Shiloh and I had been praying about what to do. Between Kyle getting no milk and the doctors recommendations, it became clear.

With the Staples and Ferren families gathered, we took Kyle into a more personal closed room. . . . and pulled the breathing machine. Brent read some Psalms. After a few minutes of labored breaths, God answered my prayers. The answer was no.

Ultimately, though, our prayer was for the Lord's will to be done. And I believe it was. No more poking and prodding. No more pain. No more dialysis. We wanted to take Kyle home. He's home now. He will not come to me, but I will go to him.

This will be the last post. There is no way to thank everyone who has come by, called, given us food and money, taken care of us, taken care of Abigail, and most importantly, prayed for us. I wish we could thank everyone properly, but there is no way. If I have one final request on this blog, it would be to continue to remember us and especially Shiloh in your prayers as the grieving process is only just beginning.

To God be the Glory.

43 comments:

  1. To God be the glory.... Thank you Lord for a better place than this world, for Kyle!

    Lord send comfort and healing to this family.

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  2. Kyle has gone home - to a much better place. I will continue to pray for you all.

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  3. For all things there is a purpose. Kyle's life on earth was short but your love for him was unconditional. God be with all of you in the coming weeks and months and give you the Peace that Passes Understanding.
    Pat McKown

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  4. The Lord is holding Kyle in His arms.
    We know your hearts are hurting. We will continue to pray for you all.
    The Sires Family

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  5. Steve and Shiloh,
    As I watched this beautiful baby go home to the Lord, I began thinking that "Go Kyle Go" had a new meaning. I began thinking, Go Kyle, go home to the Lord. Go Kyle, go in peace and be freed from this life of suffering. Go Kyle, and we will see you again someday. I love you guys more than you will ever know. Kyle's life has affected so many, including mine. What a precious gift he was from the Lord. My hope and prayer for the two of you is peace. Peace in knowing that God has Kyle's best interest at heart and has freed him from what would have been a life of doctor's visits and more surgeries. Kyle is pain free and what a blessing it is to know that. Go God Go! Thank you for letting us have Kyle, even for a short while.
    I love you...
    Mandy

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  6. There are no words. May you find a peace that can only come from God and may you find the strength to face each day. We will never understand, but God knows His plan for each of us. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love you both.
    Becky

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  7. Until we meet again, sweet angel...Father please keep his daddy, mommy and big sister wrapped in your loving embrace. AMEN

    Steve and Shiloh thank you for this blog and your beautiful hearts. We love you and will continue to pray for you.

    The Newman Family

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  8. There are no words that can express how deeply sorry I am for you. God puts every person on this earth for a purpose. Baby Kyle has touched more peoples lives in his short stay here on earth than most people do in 50+ years. He had people praying for him all across the United States and the world!! People who did not even know where Glen Rose Texas is on the map prayed for this sweet child. People united and I beleive were changed for the better because of Kyle. God was able to use Kyle and this Blog to reach people who do not know the Lord and plant seeds so that they too may have eternal life some day. Thank you Lord for such a sweet precious little boy. Thank you Steve and Shiloh for sharing him with the world. We love you guys so much and will keep praying for you!!!

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  9. Shiloh,
    I have been and will continue to pray that you feel God's arms around you and that He holds you as His child as He now holds your precious child. What a wonderful husband God has given you. We praise God for the blessing that you both have been to so many as you have lived out your faith in front of so many. We continue to lift you up as a family. We love you much!
    Jennifer James Parker (Teri Ann, Chery, and Terry)

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  10. Great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me. Those words are true and will prove themselves over and over in the days and weeks and months and years to come.
    You listened and you obeyed. There is no greater courage and compassion than that.
    Thank you for sharing this with us all. You are most generous.

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  11. I know you don't know me but I am Charm's daughter and I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. My mom includes an update about Kyle in each of her emails about Seth and I have been and will continue to pray for you guys. Thanks for the prayers and support you have given our family as well. God Bless

    Brittany Shipman

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  12. Candice Riza PeelmanJuly 12, 2009 at 1:16 AM

    Fido ~
    I wish I had the words to comfort you ... I can't begin to imagine the pain you must feel right now. My heart breaks for you, for Steve, for Abigail, and for the rest of the Staples/Ferren gang. I want you to know that we prayed for Kyle on a daily basis ... multiple times each day ... and we will continue to lift each of you up in prayer. I know the Lord has a plan, and I pray, in due time, we will all have an understanding of why things happened the way they did. Until then, cling to the Father ... let Him be your source of strength, courage, and wisdom. If there is anything I can do, please don't hesitate to ask. All my love!

    Candice

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  13. Steve, Shiloh, and Abigal....
    Kyle Bradley Staples became a tiny minister the moment he was woven in your womb. We will never be able to fully comprehend the impact this tiny child had on this earth in the short time he spent his earthly life here.
    His suffering little body brought healing to those of us that didn't pray as often as we should or who didn't hug our children as much as we could. His life forced us to turn our thoughts and eyes from ourselves to you, your family and the Lord. While I know this is little or no comfort to you now, at this moment, remember how much baby Kyle Bradly Staples and the Lord's name were spoken, day after day after day. I prayed all night for all of you. For my dear, sweet, precious, friend Jeanne, Kyles' grandmother, and for all his relatives. Thank you Steve for loving your wife so much. I am so thankful that God gave her to you, just as he did Abigal and Kyle. You are a wise young man and we love you very much. We will see Kyle again.
    Though your arms are empty and heart is aching, God's arms are wrapped around that beautiful little boy that knows no pain, sorrow or suffering. Because of your witness and deep understanding of our Lord Jesus Christ, these words make sense to you both. Because of Kyle's short time with us, others have come to know your powerful and deep understanding of the Lord Jesus Christ.
    Thank you Steve, Shiloh, Abigal, Brent Jeanne, Dwin and Margaret for sharing Kyle with us. I love you all very much and will continue to pray for you.

    Merlyn, Skylar and Randi Schneider

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  14. Dear Sweet Family,
    You have fought the good fight, You have kept the Faith...God wanted the door to close and you were obedient to His Will. We are so very proud of you and will keep you in our prayers for a long time. Love you much!

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  15. Baby Kyle pressed on and ran the race. Think of how precious he looks with that big crown on his sweet little head!
    God be the Glory, forever and ever! Amen

    We are lifting up your names and praying for complete comfort and peace for your family.

    Amy & Tim Pomykal

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  16. Steve, Shiloh and your entire family,

    Words cannot express how sorry we are to hear about baby Kyle. May you feel the strong and loving arms of God surrounding you and lifting you up today and in the days ahead.

    Jake and Tammy Ammon

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  17. No more suffering and no more pain for baby Kyle. I cannot begin to imagine how hard it was for you to let go of your precious baby but I do know that he is now in God's hands and he will be there waiting for you when it is your time to join him. I don't understand why these things happen. None of us do. What I can tell you is that I have not been close to God in many years. I have not prayed in many years. I prayed for Kyle. I grew close to God through Kyle. Perhaps miracles did happen while we all prayed. They were not the ultimate miracle that we all prayed for but they did happen. I believe I am one of them. I was searching for something. I believe I found it. Your family has touched me, changed me, brought me to know God in a way that I have not done before. Please let this be of some comfort to you. Nothing can replace your loss but I hope that some day you will know that God worked through Kyle. I am proof of that.
    I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your precious gift with all of us.

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  18. It's amazing how many lives have been touched by your sweet little Kyle; lives growing closer to the Lord as they prayed for him. I am amazed by your strength and faith, and you are all a testament to me through your words in this blog. May God continue to give you strength and may He give you comfort in knowing that Kyle is no longer hurting or struggling in his beautiful new home...heaven. We love you all. We will continue to pray for your precious family. Thank you for sharing your gorgeous little boy and his story with us.

    Hayley Darnell

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  19. Dear Family, a deep ache developed in my heart last night as I read of Kyle's passing. I admire your strength so much as you deal with what is the ultimate pain. I drew comfort in Mandy's post, and reading her perspective on her sweet little nephew's journey to Heaven. I think basically I want you to know that I grieve with you and I have prayed for that angel and for your family and will continue to do so. Your family (all of them) have meant a lot to ours at different times in our lives and it hurts to see you go thru this. Shiloh and Steve...because this has never happened to me, I was able to be humbled and more aware of my blessings and His grace thru your precious son. His life and his passing and your committment to Kyle and to each other and to God, even in extreme pain is a testimony. I just want you to know that in a few precious weeks, your son impacted people's lives. I don't know if that comforts or not. I imagine the only comfort will be God at this point. Love you all, Vanessa Metker

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  20. You are all in my heart and in my prayers. May the Lord be your source of comfort as you grieve this sweet child but may you also remember that he is dancing with all the angels in the presence of Christ where we will all one day see him again.
    Be strong in the Lord and His power. He will reveal in time the whys behind all of this.
    May He cradle you in His arms of comfort today and through the coming months.

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  21. The miracle is that Kyle is wrapped in the arm's of Jesus and feels no pain at all - and you will see him again! Your faith has been a witness to so many; bless you for your willingness to share the highs and lows of your journey and prayers continue to surround you.

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  22. Shiloh, Steve, and Abigail,
    I can only imagine the pain your hearts must be feeling right now. But, God knows your hearts and He is there with you. I can only imagine the joy Baby Kyle is experiencing now. And, he will be waiting to join you again some day. What a blessing he was during his short earthly life. I pray that the peace of God that surpasses ALL understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. We love you all and will continue to pray for you.
    Patty and Grover Downing

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  23. I know the answer was not what we were hoping for, what we prayed so hard for...but God knows. I also know yesterday evening as I returned from feeding my horse, you all were suddenly on my heart...I prayed and God told me then Kyle was home with him..I did not want to hear that. I wanted to hear of a miracle...I pled with God, but He knows best. I still hoped against hope that I was hearing wrong..but sadly, it was true. Know that Kyle is with God, and with the others gone too soon. My 5 week old Niece, Zoe is there too- and another niece who only lived a few days. We will pray over the grief, pray for a mothers empty arms that long for her child. You are not alone- we grieve with you. Love you. Kristi and Mike

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  24. We will, most certainly, continue to keep your precious family in our prayers. The Lord promised to never leave us nor forsake us...we know He means it. May God strengthen you, and continue to fill your hearts with the peace only He can bring.

    The Dempsey Family

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  25. Steve and Shiloh,

    My heart is breaking for you right now. I don't know the depths of your sorrow, but I do know that God can and will see you through. You will continue to be in my prayers.

    God bless and comfort you,
    Kendra Taylor

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  26. With each passing day since the birth of Kyle Bradley Staples, it has become more and more apparent what a truly special and amazing family the Ferrens and Staples are. Your love for the Lord and His people has shown through clearly, even in the darkest moments of this incredibly difficult journey you’ve been on. You have graciously and unselfishly shared your precious son, brother, grandson and nephew, and in the process have testified in both word and deed to your unwavering faith and trust in our Almighty God—no matter what. You have glorified and honored HIM every step of the way, and in doing so have not only touched, but also changed the lives of countless numbers of people. You have been obedient, even when the sacrifices you were asked to make were too heart-rending for most to imagine. I thank God for you, and I pray that in the hours, days, weeks, months and years ahead, peace that surpasses all understanding will surround you and fill you, and that His love for you will be felt more strongly than ever before.

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  27. One day we will all be wih him and hold him love him the way we need to. Your love will grow stronger to him as life goes on. I hope and Pray for the family may peace be with you all as you recover.. Sorry to hear this. Please let us know how the family is doing.. The Cooper family

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  28. Please accept our deepest sympathies for the passing of Kyle. We will continue to pray for your family, and that you will feel God's love and peace in this most trying time. We are so terribly sorry...

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  29. Steve, Shiloh, & Abigail,
    We are praying for your family during this time in your lives. Praying for the Lord to wrap his loving arms around you and hold you close.

    Love,
    Mary Ann & Joe Doughty
    (We are members of Bro. Dan Glenns church in Vidalia, LA.)

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  30. It's cool to know my little nephew Lanny now has a buddy up there to play with. It's so crazy to understand, but so amazing to think they are in such a wonderful, comfortable, loving home. We are praying for you guys
    Love,
    Bill, Barb, Ben and Abigail Sparks

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  31. Steve and Shiloh,

    There are no words to express and thoughts I can convey to you. The depths of your sorrows is one that no person should have to bear. My heart aches for you during this time as it is all to close to the anniversary of our precious Lanny. I pray that you find comfort in the days that lie ahead and peace within yourself that Kyle is where God has chosen him to be. The life you planned for him is not the path that God had chosen for him but Kyle became a shining light during his time here with you. You will be with him again as I will be with my son, they will be there waiting. I will be continuing to pray for you as the days pass that you will find peace within.

    Amy, Kevin, Carter and Riley Ice

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  32. We will keep you all in our prayers.

    Rex and Janice Carey

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  33. Steve, Shiloh and Abigail,
    We are heart broken over the loss of sweet baby Kyle. Please know that we are praying for all of your family during this time. We pray that God will wrap his loving arms around you continually. We pray that he will comfort you, give you peace and show the love that only he can provide.

    Love <>< Ricki and Charm Trotter

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  34. Martha and Larry FlemingJuly 13, 2009 at 12:56 AM

    Steve, Shiloh, Abigail and family,
    I wish we had words or actions that could remove the grieving from you, or spread it out among all of us so it isn't so hard for you. I do know we mourn with you even if we do not know the depth of pain you are experiencing. The comfort we all have is the assurance from our Father God of His steadfast, unconditional love. Because of this we know He will bring purpose to all this - perhaps deeping relationships, a much greater appreciation of each day with our family and friends, the ability to truly focus on what is important and much more I'm sure.

    We are praying you are comforted and healed, strenghtened and matured in the faith and know the Father more intimately than ever before, and that the peace of God will continue to prevail in your hearts.

    I know Heaven just grew a lot sweeter for us all.

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  35. We have been praying for your family and will continue to do so. There is absolutely nothing that can be said to you to make you feel better so just please know this, you are loved and prayed for and you will see your precious baby again in God's time.

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  36. Our prayers and love is pouring out of our hearts for you now. Stay strong in your hope of Christ, so in that day of our need, at the last of days, we can stand before the Lord united as a family.

    We love you. Byron and Tammy Stinson

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  37. Our deepest sympathies goe's out to yall guy's. We will be praying for your family.

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  38. Your family is in our thoughts and our prayers! The FAITH you have shown through this has been a testimony to all who has kept up with Baby Kyle. Each person has a purpose here on earth, Baby Kyle fulfilled his in a short time so Our Father called him home! May Our Father give you the peace and comfort only HE can give.

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  39. May God give the you His peace and understanding as you grieve. For our Father knows the pain involved in losing a son, He chose to suffer that pain for us all because He loves us so much. God bless you all, my prayers go up for you.

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  40. You made the hardest, most un-selfish decision that parents can ever make. Saying prayers for your family.

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  41. Shiloh, Steve, Abigail and family. Our hearts are heavy hearing of the loss of your dear Kyle. There are no words to express how we feel, but thank God we know heaven is real and Jesus asked the little children to come to him when he was here and now we know Kyle is safe in the arms of Jesus. May it give you comfort to know that he has the ultimate caretaker, caring for him until you all join him there. Heaven just got a whole lot sweeter!!! Our love and prayers. Jeannie & Loyd Swaim

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